How to cope

I just got back from a visit with G’s paternal grandparents and upon leaving treated myself to a regular sized chocolate shake from McDonalds and sucked back every bit of it. I had to restrain myself from buying something greasy, fatty and disgusting by reminding myself that I am broke, very very broke! In times of trouble I turn to food (especially sweets) and stuff my face. Although this is a fairly self destructive coping mechanism I’m just grateful I don’t do drugs or drink. Then I would really be a mess…
I have been on my high horse for the past few months since G was born telling everyone who would listen that I didn’t want Daddy Dearest’s money, that we didn’t need it and I would rather he take a flying leap. I have managed to tuck most of what he’s sent into a savings account for the new car I’m getting in just a couple weeks. I had counted on getting a money order from his parents when I went for a visit today. ****weird side note***daddy dearest doesn’t trust banks and gives me money orders now en lieu of cash, I think it’s so they can be used to prove he gives me money. Unfortunately this money order never materialized. Of course it just figures though that this month is especially lean and I am experiencing some serious financial woes. Usually I’m pretty good at saving and planning ahead for problems that might arise but this month my issue stems from the fact that Stupid Canada student loan helped themselves to 400$ from my bank account last week. 400$ might not sound like a lot, but to this single momma that’s a ton because while I’m on maternity leave my income is less than 1000$ a month (I think even less than 900$ a month but I still haven’t made my fall budget yet).
Apparently because I have been out of school for 6 months now it’s time to start repaying…but hold the phone…I’m starting back to school in September!!!! Anyways the nice lady I spoke to on the phone told me that she won’t be able to refund my July payment but that I should be able to stop the August payment from coming out if I do a whole lot of paper work. AWESOME with all my spare time!
Lessons learned this week:
1) don’t count on DD to pay child support EVER!!!!!!
2) read the fine print on those silly monthly letters the student loan place sends to your mother’s house via snail mail
3) Find a better way to cope after visits from paternal side of the family or you will be obese by the end of the year

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